First Day of School

Well, we have officially finished the first day of what some people would call the worst year of teaching--our first year. I think Jon and I would both agree that it was all just one big blur. Jon was surprised that he thought he seemed a little more strict than he thought he would be and I thought it seemed that I was a little more easy than I thought I would be. Who knows though? I wish that I could just call today's first day of school a practice run and try it all over again tomorrow, but I can't get another first day of school back until next school year. It's not that it was a bad day (far from that). It's just that I feel I could have done a little better job had I had a little more practice. I guess I will get that practice the longer I teach. All in all though, I felt that today was a pretty successful day. Some things went better than expected, but some didn't go as well. I felt pretty scatter-brained all day. (Sorry my writing isn't as eloquent as Jon's.) Jon said that one of his students cried at the sight of seeing that she would be having a male teacher. She actually ended up getting switched to the other "female" teacher. I had a student notice my many hand habits and ended up asking me if I was nervous or something. That really took me by surprise. I didn't think that I was acting nervous, but maybe I was. Hopefully she was the only one who noticed it. I just can't believe that I am sitting here tell you all about my first day of teaching. I truly thought that it would never come. I have been dreaming about this day since kindergarten. And three days I didn't even think that it was possible for me to pull this day off. I was having quite an emotional breakdown...feeling that I didn't have enough time to get everything done. There was just so much to do and not even close to enough time for me to get it done. I couldn't figure out what was important for me to do and what wasn't important. I finally just came begging to God to help me know what needed to be done to help me get through the first day of school. Yesterday, when I realized that there was nothing more for me to do, I realized that it was only by the help of God that I felt prepared for today. More evidence that nothing can be accomplished without the help of our Lord Jesus Christ. I guess that I will be taking it at a day by day basis and praying daily for God to get me through each day.